Recently I went to see my Psychiatrist. I see him every couple months and he prescribes my medicine to help control my mental illnesses, anxiety, and depression. This visit wasn’t any different from the dozens of others I have gone to.
And yet it was.
A week or so ago, during one afternoon, one bad thing piled up on top of another all in the course of a couple of hours. I came home feeling done for the day. But for the first time in I don’t know how long, I didn’t feel this overwhelming sense of doom that usually overcomes me when one bad situation after another bad situation unfold repeatedly in a short amount of time. Normally I feel an uncontrollable need to curl up in a fetal position under my blankets and hide from the world. I feel that nothing will ever be right with the world again and how could I possibly go on? But although I was exhausted, and still wanted my bed the sense of doom didn’t come.
You see, I realized that finally, my mental illnesses are mostly under control. I haven’t been able to say that in at least five years. It has been five years of working with doctors, pumping my body full of supplements and trying different medication combos. Previously once I reached this stage and maintained it for a while I’ve been able to go off my medication. Whether or not that will be possible this time or not is yet to be seen. For now, I’m happy with finally being in a place where I can be happy. I can handle life and LIVE, not just try and survive day to day.
So I’m celebrating today by loving my life and loving not having the shadows of mental illness hanging over me. I’m happy and confident. Will it always be this way? Probably not, but for now, here and today, it is and I thank God for that!
It is so amazing to hear that your mental health is in such a great place! #GlobalBlogging
Thank you!
Oh how wonderful it is when we get a sweet peace instead of that “doom” feeling you mentioned. To have it revealed to you had to be like a big breath of fresh air!! I definitely relate to that moment. It’s been several years now but I remember all to well how I battled each day and how healing came. I don’t know you but my heart is rejoicing with you on this!! #graceandtruth linkup 🙂
Thank you! It has been SO wonderful to not have that doom hanging over me. The world is SO much brighter.
So glad to hear this, I talk to many women who have suffered depression or anxiety. I know of one who still struggles, though her sister was instantly healed. We are all at different places of faith but He will meet you there, even if you feel that darkness, reach for Jesus because He is there. His peace to you, John 14:27, I pray in His name to see a lifting of these oppressions off so many souls. He does love us so, God bless.
Thank you. I’m hoping that this time of it being lifted sticks around for a long time.
So glad you are celebrating this time and progress. We often fail to celebrate our successes. Maybe because we are onto our next success, and maybe because the change happened so slowly that we don’t realize how much we or things have changed over the long haul. Love your attitude here. And celebrating with you.
Thank you. The light shining is hard to miss. I’m loving the freedom of spirit.
This is wonderful news! Enjoy each good day God gives you!
Thank you!
I am so happy for you. It sounds as if you have had a wonderful breakthrough.
Thank you. It’s so nice not to be under that dark worrying cloud for awhile.
Celebrating with you, Calleen! I pray God will do the same work in my son’s life.
Blessings,
Tammy
Thank you. I pray that he will as well.
Living with that feeling can be so hard. I am happy to hear that the feeling is lifting for you.
Thank you.
I am so glad to read this, Calleen. It feels good to celebrate life. I hope the warm spring sunshine keeps you on this positive note. Blessings to you!
Thank you very much.
I am jumping up for joy with you. Embrace and enjoy this time. I have no doubt you have worked hard to get here. I am praying my loved one can reach it too. Thank you for sharing on Grace & Truth Christian Link-Up.
Thank you. I pray your loved one will reach it too. Thank you for reading.
Praise God! I am so glad that the doom is lifting, and hope is on the horizon! Depression and anxiety are overwhelming, may your heart now be filled with peace, hope, and joy! Sweet blessings to you!
Thank you so much!