My 40th Year

My 40th year came to a close on Sunday. My year started out pretty tough as we were in the middle of our struggles with our son last year. We didn’t know where it was going to take us. Luckily for all of us, we have found our way through.

Overall though, for me personally, my 40th year has been one of the best years I have seen yet.

I feel like I’m finding myself, becoming myself, and taking on life as I should instead of hiding from it. And that has been SO rewarding. Somehow along the way, I started reacting to things instead of living.

In January I started back to college. This was something I’ve wanted to do for years but for various reasons I’ve been unable to return. Going to school every day literally makes my heart sing! I’ve found new confidence in myself, and a knowledge that going back to school isn’t beyond me. My brain isn’t completely fried from children! It has expanded my horizons and made me really think about situations that I otherwise wouldn’t have. It gives me great hope and a few dreams for the future.

This 40th year, I took a step forward in faith. I’ve always believed in God, always knew he was there. But at other times in my life, I’ve trusted him a lot more than I have the last few years. I think perhaps God understands that this is all part of the journey of learning about him and what he wants for our lives. But this year I stepped out purposely and said,My 40th Year Click To Tweet And as God does, he stepped up in amazing ways, and that leaves me grateful to my core. This has also helped my crazy anxiety-ridden brain. Instead of worrying about issues, I can turn them over to God. It hasn’t cured my chronic anxiety, but it has helped a lot. 

 

 

I have stepped out of my comfort zone and started working on several longer projects. Books. My progress has slowed since I started school, but they are still there, hiding in the banks of my computer. Waiting for me to say I’m ready to finish this. And it doesn’t matter if it never sees the light of day beyond my computer. I’m doing it for me.

In November it found me in Victoria Canada for my 16th anniversary. Any time I can travel internationally I call it a win. Even if it is only an hour or two away.

I took a walk on the wild side.

When I was a kid, Punk Rockers were big and I wanted to dye my hair like theirs SO bad! But alas, I have dark hair and all the fun Halloween spray in dyes wouldn’t do anything on my hair. I’m pretty sure the only reason my Mother let me use them when I dressed up was because you couldn’t tell I had done anything. Now people are dying their hair all kinds of crazy colors. After the craziness with our son, I needed something different. So I had a blue streak dyed in my hair. I could cover it up if I wanted to or I could expose it. It was my choice and I knew that if I didn’t like it, it was hair and I could cut it and it would grow out. I loved it! But again, my hair didn’t want to assist me in this enterprise. After the second wash, the blue was pretty much gone and I was left with a lightened streak of hair. I don’t regret it at all, and kind of wish it had stayed longer. Maybe I’ll try again another time. I, unfortunately, didn’t get any pictures.

My 40th year was fun, exciting, and brought new horizons. I can’t wait to see what my 41st year will bring.

26 thoughts on “My 40th Year

  1. I’m the same with hair colour, it never sticks for long. If you’re feeling rebellious, strip the hair colour and then you can change up the streak with more than just a blue colour when you want! It will grow with your hair and if you feel like you want to go back to normal, you can dye it back to your natural shade!
    Thank you for sharing this with us at #TriumphantTales. Sorry for the late comment.

    1. I’ve been asking around and people who have dark hair who have a color that stays longer, it seems they use a colored shampoo which keeps putting the color back in. I may try that next time.

  2. I wrote a bucket list a couple of years ago for my 36th birthday and haven’t made too much progress. Better get on as only 2 and a bit years left! Fun to try new things and appreciate the things that matter most to us. Thanks for linking up with #globalblogging

  3. Ah…my 40th year was a long time ago. My favorite so far? You know, like if I could be one age for the rest of my life? 55. I am now 68 1/2 – and feel great and am in excellent health. But, 55? A super great year! So, you see? You have so much to look forward to!

  4. Congrats on going back to school and setting new goals for yourself! That’s wonderful that you have some new found courage too.

  5. This is so great to read. It’s wonderful that you went back to college and aren’t afraid of new challenges and trying new things. Exciting things still to come, I’m sure x #MixitUp

  6. Do the hair again! Get a back up for your computer – I started a book proposal in 2008 and just came across it again -did 3 in the meantime, and may get back to it. I’m 66 almost 67 and a red head usually and you have just begun! And yes, kids still fry my brain.

    1. Yah. I need to back up the computer for sure. A lot of it at the moment is in my draft folder of my blog posts as they started out as blog posts.
      I think I will probably do my hair in May after we come back from visiting my parents.
      I was hoping that kids wouldn’t fry my brain as much at 60!😉

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