At the end of June, I started working full-time for the first time in 12 years. My family is still struggling to make the adjustment. I’ve ended up working as a Human Resources Coordinator at a factory that manufactures transformers. HR wasn’t anything I was looking to get into, and I definitely wasn’t looking at manufacturing for a job. But every job that would have been perfect for me, that I could bring a lot of skills and knowledge to the job, or that would help in my continuing education? None of them worked out.
Instead, God brought me to a factory.
Luckily it’s a nice clean factory that isn’t super noisy (at least not where I am). I always think of factories being loud and dirty for some reason.
I wondered why God was bringing me to work in a factory. Trying to curb my upward climbing desires? Trying to frustrate me? This job really made no sense if you considered the jobs I was up for (and was eventually offered after I had already started working at the factory). But God, as he usually does, had a plan for me in mind.
And it was all about teaching me, about me.
He is showing me that I project WAY too much. All emails from my boss who I never met for the first two months I worked there? I read them as though I have done something seriously wrong and I am a bad person. I never knew I reacted this way to feedback from people. I’ve prided myself that I can take feedback. What has happened to me? It’s the same thing with the feedback from my Professor in my current class. Since he doesn’t actually teach us at all but just grades our assignments, I have no relationship with him and take everything he says as I am not doing a good job. When did this happen? This has shown me I have big work to do on myself.
Confidentiality. I can be pretty good at it. But HR is a great place to learn to keep working on it. I keep finding that I slip up. Luckily nothing major, but I need to continually keep watch over my tongue. This is great practice for my future as a therapist. Keep your mouth closed at all times unless there is a need to know.
Office gossip? It’s bad. Before I went back to work, I really kept my nose out of other people’s business. I had way more important things to worry about and didn’t have time for that. Enter a job that I have to know a lot about other people’s business. It is so tempting to want be in the know about everything, I am working on reminding myself to stay in my own lane, but show compassion, and kindness where needed.
What I’m trying to say, is that it’s as if God has designed a perfect training course for me for my future career as a therapist. God decided I’d worked enough on other people it was time to get back to me so that I could be the best therapist I can.
It’s been an eye-opening process, to say the least.
